busy day ahead

Today I’m going to have to go to Iya’s school and pay her tuition and fees.  And then late this afternoon I have to go to the doctor to see how my pregnancy is coming along.  In between is the paperwork, a meeting, preparing for class tomorrow, paying bills…and Iya’s hip-hop class.

Just putting it all down makes it less overwhelming than when it was just all in my head a few minutes ago.

And I guess the idea is to keep on putting one foot in front of the other until all the work gets done.

I really should spend more time putting thoughts to (cyber) paper in the morning.  It helps clear the fog.

do all moms worry like this?

At the end of this month it will be halfway into the year and about four-and-a-half months before baby # 3 comes out.

A third child.

Sometimes I don't feel I'm doing such a great job with the first two and now there's going to be a third.  And I'm scared.

Iya's going to be in the Second Grade in June and that means I have to step up and be around when she has questions and when the school work pours in.  She's a smart cookie and can get the work done on her own but I also know that we have a way to go in forming good study habits.  And on hindsight, study habits are really, really important.  But learning also has to be fun.  And if I try to do that for my students, for kids who are not technically my own, then I should do the same for my daughter.  She deserves more than I give other kids.

Sary has been difficult.  And she's only three but I think she feels that her time with me is about to get cut when the baby is here.  I feel I haven't spent as much time with her since she was just a few months old.  And then I got caught up with work.  And the next thing I know my baby is a little girl with a mean temper.  Sweet, but occasionally bratty.  Okay, most of the time bratty.  But the yaya says she only gets that way when I'm around which probably translates to "PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!!"

And then there will be a third.  And I am dreading the lack of sleep.  The crying all the time.  The breastfeeding every hour -- or several times in an hour.  And I'm scared that I won't love all my children the same, and that at this point if I make a mistake I might break them…forever.

success is relative

*whoosh*


And before I knew it, January is over and February just hit me smack in the face today.  


I had loads of things that I wanted to do for February but never got around to doing.  Unfortunately, the challenge of writing a blog post a day was one of those things that I didn't get to do last month.  For some that would mean being a failure.  Well, I'm not part of that group of "some".


The fact that I'm willing to get back in the game and write a blog post a month for February makes me a success.  It's in the trying, in the journeying, in the process, that one becomes a success.


Cheers to February! :)

falling off my horse

Oh my.  I said I would be blogging every day this January and I've already missed 22 straight days. :(

But I'm out of my slump and getting back on that horse again!

My post for today is on my reading blog which is here.

See you guys again tomorrow!

(Who says we can't have more than one beginning?)

a review of 2011

Got this from I who has been doing a year-end review of her life every year for some time now. :)  I think it's a good idea!

And so here's looking back at my year...

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What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?

Went to Rome and stayed there for two weeks!  Had a papal audience.  Went to Assissi and Florence.  Saw the David up close.  Threw a coin in the Trevi Fountain.  Went to Australia.  Bought a sewing machine.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No I didn't get to keep any of my resolutions. :(  So this year I will make commitments instead!  And just one a month so that keeping track is easy. ;)

Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister...to the cutest curly-haired little girl.  K's coming into the world may not have been the way we would have wanted, but like I always say, a baby-no matter the circumstance-is a blessing. :)

Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, an uncle in January and another uncle last October.  Both were principal sponsors at my wedding. :(

What countries did you visit?
Rome and Australia! :)

What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
The courage to stand up for my values and beliefs.

What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?June 5-17.  Those were the days I was in Rome with fellow Lasallians from other countries. :)


What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I got to strike off two items from my bucket list.  One was singing in front of an audience (that came true thanks to the Christmas Party of the Faculty Association of our school), and the other was to be in the booth of a radio station while a particular radio show was airing. :)

What was your biggest failure?
 I didn't lose the weight that I targeted at the start of the year. :(

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes. I had several bouts with asthma and a really bad ankle sprain.

What was the best thing you bought?
A Kobo e-book reader from the leftover daily allowance I was given for my Australia trip.  For a bookworm like me, this is great!

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My sister who is a single mother.  Despite all the stress, she has managed to keep her cool.  Truly a lady til the end.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My cousin...and her lawyer...but more of her lawyer. Boo!

Where did most of your money go?Credit card bill payment.  So sad.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Rome trip! :)

What song will always remind you of 2011?
Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5.  Oh and Chris Brown's Next To You.

Compared to this time last year are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier, definitely.
ii. thinner or fatter? Sana same lang...kasi kung hindi, fatter. :(
iii. richer or poorer? I'm not so sure.

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Read.  And spend time with the kids.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sleep.  And eat.  And complain.

How did you spend Christmas?
With J's family in the south.

Did you fall in love in 2011?Yes...with my cutie niece K. :)

Who got together and who broke up?Yikes...I don't really pay attention.  I'm always in a state of confusion over these things. (HA?!  Si ano at si ano na?  Kailan pa?!  HA?!  Wala na si ano at si ano?  Ano nangyari?!)

What was your favorite TV program?
I didn't get to follow TV programs ON TV this year.  It's usually mindless flipping of channels.  But I watched Secret Garden over the internet and I found it amusing. :)  I think it doesn't help that there's something wrong with our TV and everything's so dark. :( 

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

To paraphrase I who I got these questions from:  We don't hate...we just don't care. :D 

What was the best book you read?The Agatha Christie books, as usual. :)

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Princess who sings acoustic covers and Sara Bareilles. :)

What did you want and got?
I've been wanting to buy a sewing machine, I finally bought one at the pier. :)  Now to find time to use it!

What was your favorite film of this year?Because its the only movie I remember watching...Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Videoke with N, B, and J! :)

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If our family's more-than-three-year-old problem had finally been resolved.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Huh?  What fashion concept?

What kept you sane?
Occasional massages.  Ranting on the net.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?Wala.


What political issue stirred you the most?Access to information by the Filipino Deaf Community...and also their right to legal access through interpreting services in court.

Who did you miss?

I missed Irene, and Ruby...and then towards the latter part of the year I missed having K and P around.

Who was the best new person you met?
Florencia from IALU 2011.  She was always so happy and energetic!

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:

It's time to quit smoking.  Although I learned that (or rather, I finally accepted that it was a lesson I had to learn) towards the end of December so it finds itself on my list of commitments for 2012.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:Listen as your day unfolds

Challenge what the future holds

Try to hold your head up to the sky

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You gotta be, you gotta be bad,

You gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser.

You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,

You gotta be stronger.

You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,

You gotta stay together.

All I know, all I know is LOVE WILL SAVE THE DAY.

~ Des'ree

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How about you guys?  How was your 2011? :)